kind of 16

2009-04-28T16:32:00.000-07:00

this songg was dedicated to me by my favourite person in the world..
i miss you..
cant wait till your here..
wat wud i do without yu..
this song made my day..

law 7obna ghalta
trekna ghal6aneenn..
mazal 3ash2aneen ma3 ba3ad merta7eeen..
meen yalli a2alak meen
meen yalli a2lak meen
3an 7obna ghal6a
law 7bna 3la6a trekna 3laneen
mazal 3ash2anneenn ma3 ba3ed merta7eenn
meen yalii a2alak meen
meen yali a2lak meen
3an 7obna 3la6a

mish hamimni el denya kela wenta 7adii
mish hamimni shu badhon
... ba3ref shu badii

mish hamimni el denya kelha wennta 7adiii
mish hamimmni shu badhon
.. ba3ref shu badiii

bedi 7ebak aktar ba3d.. a36i 3eyounak wa3dd..
ra7 neb2a dayman la ba3d..
law la bokra tarakna ba3d hay heye akbar 3'al6a

bedi 7ebbak aktar ba3d .. aa36i 3eiyounak wa3ddd..
ra7 neb2aa dayman la ba3d..
law la bokra tarakna ba3d hay heye akbar 3;al6a

maktoub 3alyna neshta2
lel 7obb el haniii
ta y5las 3omr el ashwa2
tetifni el denye

law 7obna 3'l6a trekna 3'al6anneenn
mazal 3ash2aneenn ma3 ba3ddd merta7eenn

2009-04-25T14:54:00.000-07:00

a dear little buddy!! hes so young yet seems soo mature.. always makes me laugh..
"booo's me" all the time.. he reminds me greatly of this comedian.. not sure of you hav heard of him
quite a work of art. " russell peters"
the skin tone well he hasnt really pulled off quite yet. but with a bit of sunshine.. i wud mistaken him for mr RUSSELL.
.. hrmmm
is he in love or is he indeniall.. it remains a mystery i will soo uncover..
love notes romantic phrases. well seems to me like someone isn't going to fool me..
women hav a sixth sense... msure youve all heard about it.. and im sure youve heard that its almost never proven wrong..
gives us women a very power no man can deny!!
im hoping all this isnt to waste.. a little hnting with a few facts.. willsurely get the truth out one way or another..
pressure was also provent o be another method of induction..
im not going to get into the army tourture methods. i hav in mind .. as this blog shal remain calm soft and sweet within specific boundaries. but dont be fooled.. i hav ablitlies that avnt been yet seen by many.. but those who have seen them.. make sure you inquirre..
so my freind.. i shal keep your name annonymous.. . but you sur eknwo yorslef.
keep i mind
i hav this obsession (L) with red things ;) and i .. id just . id just go crazy without all thsoe lottle things that you do.. ;) AMAZING ( your reallyspecial to me ;)

"hahahaahahahaaa " quoted the wise old lady.. :P

family or freinds
well i gotta say wen it comes to immediate family i will b there ... till my fourth cousins and family.. i shall lay.. but a step furthr than that.. my freinds willl always be there to stay..

s i hav this freind and this co - fam.. il call it..
who do i advise who do i want to do the right thing.. my dear freind
this seniorita is qite a unique character..
ive known her for soo little time.. yet i feel like ive known her my whole life LISTEN to me
IM WISE
is the message im trying to convey to you my dear freind..
our laughters and times are pricles.. but at times like this.. think with your head and listen to me..
=D haha

XXX
love you beobolezzzz
you my homiezzzzz hehe

XXXX

2009-04-25T14:03:00.000-07:00

today ... a very normal day!! wel atleast thats how it started off..

i woke up extremly early.. had an exam well two to be more specific..

im guessing i passed..

barely got any sleep last night.. but coped quite alright...

a good freind had just come bak from being away for quite a while.. it was refreshing talking to her.. catchng up.. old tymes.. made me think of how i was and who and where i stood in my life aproximately a year ago..

surprizingly i hadnt accomplished much this year!!

i dont rember what made me so sucessful in my own eyes last year.. but wat i do rember is being contended with where i stood..

human nature always seeks for more..

im guessing i seeked what i had no knowledge of.. went forward to it thinkng the next step i life will be the place where i want to be.. but now being there i had wished.. i hadnt stepped this deep..

baby footsteps they say is the way to go, thats the pace i shud hav strode at ..

thinking my life through i reliazed i wander around aimlessly.. trying to pass each day as it goes.. less tears than i shed the day before..

n my head i know what i want in my furtue the image seems to be so faboulous and refined just for me.. but applying al this isnt that easy..

not going int he pace that i strode n before giving a sense of weaknss as if life is pulling me bak..

the big question is..

is this a reason for me to work harder fight whati feel is wrong but go ahead with it because its whati have in mind..

or go bak to the things i had before.. the simple life that lept as simple smile on my face..

regrets maybe a feew.. whos to balme. no one but myself

i had recnetly upset a good freind i would more likely call a sister.. priorites needed to be se once in for all everything was turing into a mess.. life needed to be set straignt soon i hope i hav and will show that to her..

actons do speak louder than words.. but one does loose sight of whats realy going on.. being blinded by love can be a reason.. but can never can be an excuse..

i hav been putting up with alot from this specific person.. very dear to me.. captured my heart indeed.. how much to put up wiht.. amd i putting up with it because i care or because im scacred of how things will be without this person.. addictioon is it.. a habit.. or whati really want,, i really dont know but everyday i hav the heart to move on but moving on is that the word being constantly reminded..

?whud this person put upwith half of what i put up big question? remains unaswered.. and needs to be put at test..

but why the trouble.. why the risk of a heart break? stay where you are. you never know it might be the better place of where you want to be. or think you want to be.. as i said before human nature never really contented.. always seeking more...

call me greedyy.. but i seek hapiness of heart..

loosing myself isnt the place i thoght i would be.. and isnt whee i think i am.. but i think is the nextt step in the path im going towards..

change is dificult.. but is for the best sometimes...

painful expreiences make one realize who they are and what really matters to each of us as indivisual.. and more like who matters.

people all react in different ways..

differnt ways of elaborating on how each indiisual and how they feell..

but is this just a simple excuse or is it a fact that im stating..

effection does appear when times are rough..

do people react due to the sense of guilt that hits them if they dont.. or if they want to themselves out of their nature towards you..

do people act to please you or to lie you your face

do people act into smiling and manipulating you or leading you into a path they belive is better advisable..

all i know is things need to be differnet. need to be chaged.. change is good and bad... desiosns are all mine.. change is what i seek..

where .. how ... ill leav it for that moment to decide...

follow my heart is where i should be

if your heart is happy..

your mind will eventually settledown contended..

no heart burns.. no reminders of the unwanted.. dont live in denial just live the way you feel is right

dont love the life you live .. live the life you love.. <3

IZZIE XOXO